{"id":8811,"date":"2022-12-07T17:59:00","date_gmt":"2022-12-07T23:59:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/?p=8811"},"modified":"2025-08-30T20:30:57","modified_gmt":"2025-08-31T01:30:57","slug":"never-be-this-small","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/2022\/12\/07\/never-be-this-small\/","title":{"rendered":"never be this small"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I marvel at how fast he grows. A big kid now in a big kid bed and exclusively using the tallboy toilet. But same as it ever was, since the day he was born&#8230; he will never be this small again. I remind myself when he squirms in my hugs, with our play piledrives into the couch, when he ducks into my shadow and slips a warm hand in mine, all of this is temporary. It will not last. He grows so fast.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">But that&#8217;s not quite right. It does last. That&#8217;s the whole point. Parenting <a><\/a>outlasts the child. Our attention and guidance, care and loving kindness, and occasional to the brink patience spent straight losing it IS the child.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">He lights my world and drives me crazy, remaking me every moment I ground myself in it to be present for his laughter, joy and wonder, and all the ear-splitting face-purpling crocodile tantrums, too, scrabbling for the boundaries of safety and self. Just how far can he bend his light. Will there ever be an end to this love.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Forever.<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Never.<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-large\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1200\" height=\"1200\" src=\"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Llumberjack-1200x1200.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-8812\" srcset=\"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Llumberjack-1200x1200.jpg 1200w, https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Llumberjack-768x768.jpg 768w, https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/02\/Llumberjack.jpg 1440w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1200px) 100vw, 1200px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<div style=\"height:30px\" aria-hidden=\"true\" class=\"wp-block-spacer\"><\/div>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Happy third birthday. I love being your mom.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Parenting outlasts the child.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":8814,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[17,30],"class_list":["post-8811","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-narratives","tag-family","tag-now-zen"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8811","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8811"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8811\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9197,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8811\/revisions\/9197"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/8814"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8811"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8811"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8811"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}