{"id":31,"date":"2002-11-06T00:00:00","date_gmt":"2002-11-06T06:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.deepsicks.com\/blog\/?p=31"},"modified":"2022-02-27T13:55:36","modified_gmt":"2022-02-27T19:55:36","slug":"there-were-so-many-dreams-there-was-no-time-for-sleep","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/2002\/11\/06\/there-were-so-many-dreams-there-was-no-time-for-sleep\/","title":{"rendered":"there were so many dreams, there was no time for sleep"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">This past couple of weeks I&#8217;ve shadowed the living in a constant state of shock, surreal\u2014nothing surprises, only lets down and terrifies. Personally politically psychically I&#8217;m shaken, a manic puking mess hysterical, I laugh when I should cut, cry when I should fight back, sleep when I should write, dream when I should wake up, I made a decision: I&#8217;m going to be a monster. <i>&#8220;What are you going to do after college?&#8221;<\/i>&nbsp; Write. <i>&#8220;What are you going to be?&#8221;<\/i> A monster.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I won the category for &#8220;most original costume&#8221; at a Halloween party\u2014in possibly my most tactless moment, I went as the redheaded stepchild.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"166\" height=\"445\" src=\"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/redhead.jpg\" alt=\"Meg as redheaded stepchild\" class=\"wp-image-6960\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">For those amongst you who&#8217;ve time and time again insisted to me that I&#8217;m the scariest goddamn thing you&#8217;ve ever encountered, I officially recant my constant denials and confusion. I&#8217;m real scary. I&#8217;m going to be a monster.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"275\" height=\"247\" src=\"https:\/\/megasimon.com\/d6\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/02\/scary.jpg\" alt=\"Closeup of redheaded stepchild.\" class=\"wp-image-6961\"\/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">The prize was a pump-action water gun, so watch out.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">To get a taste of my current mood music, check out the Minneapolis-local band <a href=\"http:\/\/www.awhisperinthenoise.com\">A Whisper in the Noise<\/a>. What does a whisper in the noise sound like?\u2014a brooding, get-out eerie male voice creeping about mad strings. Listen to the songs &#8220;Silence&#8221; and &#8220;In the Dark&#8221; hosted at <a href=\" http:\/\/artists.mp3s.com\/artists\/154\/a_whisper_in_the_noise_.html\">mp3.com<\/a> and not be owned, I dare you. Thanks to <a href=\"http:\/\/www.cassielalpha.com\">Kevin<\/a> for the heads up on this group.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Oh, and I had to postpone the visit home (&#8220;visit home&#8221;). Hm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">My birthday, not home.<br>No cake, no candles, no wish.<br>Is this important?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This past couple of weeks I&#8217;ve shadowed the living in a constant state of shock, surreal\u2014nothing surprises, only lets down and terrifies. 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